So today was just another day hermit-crabbing in my room at my parent's house, scouring the mystical land of Internet, amusing myself. Then I decided to look through my old Facebook messages.
Oh Boy did i cringe, I cringe so much that I have to stand up and breathe to loosen up my face, even that was not enough, I have to take short walks in the house to get a grip.
Was that really me?
I was the most retarded, self-centered, ignorant, stupid, obnoxious, egocentric, shallow, oblivious, piece of little shit.
Due to the shock I had I couldn't quite believe it, I went to check for other traces of me, to prove myself I'm not that bad as a person. There's still good in me. So I went and read through my old blog posts, I nearly fainted, there it is, all written down in words, proof I was nothing but this large piece of spoiled brat meat walking around the face of Earth. Trash of mankind. The reason why my generation sucked...
I was a total jerk. I mean like, why would I wanna do that man??? Just whyyy??
I have never met someone who's so selfish and so oblivious to other people's feelings. Who lacks a sense of empathy to such an extent. Who have no respect towards anyone at all. I had an issue man. Mom and Dad why you no notice.
There were people who loved and cared for me and I broke promises, hurt them, not thinking for a second how they must've felt. Disappoint them. Who the hell did I think I was man???The world have given me so much and what I did was fart in front of its face.
So now here I am silently sending mental apologies to those who I have hurt, cuz texting is just, you know... weird.. given five years have passed. Anyway I truly hope that I would never have to be like that again, I really hope I won't slip back into that "jerk" phase again, I've got a feeling I have a tendency to do so, even when I don't want to. Must be the family "jerk" genes I guess.
